King of Scars (King of Scars #1) By Leigh Bardugo a sense of profound loss

a sense of profound loss wars with profound love

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The Alexandrian Society is a secret society of magical academicians

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King of Scars (King of Scars #1) By Leigh Bardugo a sense of profound lossThe dashing young king, Nikolai Lantsov, has always had a gift for the impossible. No one knows what he endured in his country's bloody civil war and he intends to keep it that way. Now, as enemies gather at his weakened borders, Nikolai must find a way to refill Ravka's coffers, forge new alliances, and stop a rising threat to the once great Grisha Army. Yet with every day a dark magic within him grows stronger, threatening to destroy all he has